Art and Soul Reloaded

 I have been creating images, colouring them and playing with the images, it's great fun as I am never sure what will appear. Today I  have a tear drop image in mind not sure what will come of it, need tine to let it evolve. I have many more images but need to delete some to make room for others. Tara the female budda was born from a tear, it has been an imafe I have worked with before but seems to need a deeper level of understanding as I give my body  permission to resolve the cancer scar I have where my breast resided.

 I have been giving thought to having a tattoo on my right arm add ijng believe as a reminder that it takes faith to recover from a life threatening diagnosis.  It seems it miggt be a 3 generational journey if we can arrange it, I like that idea.   Today I am struggling had one of those  rotten nights up and down in pain sometimes it does  me in.   Today I am not sure what I plan to do I have a collage to create thinking of using old photo's as a background.  Have begun writing a little poetry inspired by reading a book borrowed  from  Jade "Violet bent backwards over the grass" Lana del Rey.

 This morning I was head strong and got out early  to walk, it was overcast and dreary outside a reflection of how I was feeling.  I strode out hoping to leave the funk behind, instead of listening to my body when it said I had done enough I kept on walking, by the time I got home I was feeling pretty tired and feeling sick.  I was holding onto a lot of sadness and fear which came as a surprise, lots of tears and talking helped shift some of it. It took me most of today to recover, in the future I might listen sooner. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

 Ooops nearly forgot to do todays blog.  Yeah I managed to sleep ok last night, on waking I decided I  would go for a morning walk, I love walking  by the river in the morning, lifting my nose high and inhaling the scent of eucalypt.  As I took deep breaths there lay in front of me a white feather, Carolyn's mum Mollie came to mind it is a symbol fir Carolyn of her mum being close by, I often feel her presence when I walk and find white feathers in my path.  Red flowers lit up the bitumen pathway causing me to pause for a while and take photos of the ancient trees who rise like sentinels along the river bank.   Autumn is on it's way, my favourite time of year, trees turn from green to yellow to orange to red and what a joy they bring to my heart. The days shorten, the heat is less and I find it easier to breathe.  I live in a very pretty part of the world and count my bessings  daily to have found that inner quietude which for many years...

 This is not my work but it reminds me of myself as a child and as an adult.  I often go outside and stare up at the stars.  I think maybe this might be a good place to start my next collage as I haven't done any for a while and would like to get into the swing of it again.  I might draw a child and then cut out the image like the one above using it as the central figure.  I had a dream last night where I wasn't seen or acknowledged this is a trait I have had since childhood the child in the picture is also alone, maybe she to felt she was never seen. Or is it all about me not seeing my real self, me continually following old ways and not facing up to my fears.  I do hold myself back  years ago it was nothing to make a trip into the city but these days just going to Mt Barker does me in. My world seems to be getting smaller.

 I did my first class in yoga today for over 35 years.  I stretched areas of my body that have remained stagnant holding in emotions which snuck into crevices uninvited.  At one stage I became aware of how closed my heart area had become the gentle stretching encouraged me to open the muscles in my chest area.  I will follow up restorative yoga on you tube tomorrow and see if I can continue the process at home.  The instructor was a young woman very enthusiasic about taking the class, she came and assisted me when I couldn't do one of the  poses and explained there are always optional ways of working the body if I find myself struggling.  I found my balance was a little better than I originally thought. I must admit my body felt much better for the session not sure how I will feel tomorrow hopefully not too stiff.  After the class had finished I slipped into the green grocers for food then onto  Vees to help her tidy up her lounge.